It is hard to believe that it has already been one year since Fr. Francis Keenan, S.M. has passed away. He was one of the more lovable and joyful priests I have ever encountered in my life. Unfortunately, I must confess that I did not know him so well while he was alive. He is however one of the main causes as to why I am where I am now with my life.
If it were not for the passing of Fr. Francis, there is a good chance I would not have re-established contact with the Marianists. If that had not happened, I could hardly see any other reason as to why I would currently be an aspirant (a.k.a. a baby brother, new guy, brother in training, etc...). It is hard for me to believe that it has been a year since I came back to Kellenberg.
I remember so clearly walking through the doors of my old high school and into the lobby for the wake of Fr. Francis. I did not leave Kellenberg on the best of terms and I felt awkward being where I was, not being sure if anyone wanted me to be there at all. Something made me feel however that I still belonged to the school I had left, something made me feel that I had to come that night. Familiar faculty greeted me with a casual warmness that is so typical of Kellenberg. As I made my way into the auditorium, where the wake was actually taking place, I moved slowly down the aisle towards a priest whom I did know very well as a student. I was not sure how much of me he remembered though. Would he remember my name off the top of his head? Would he be happy to see me or would he care less? He was after all a priest who dealt with thousands of people, constantly coming in and out of his life on a daily basis. What impression did I make on him? I was never remarkable.
As I got closer and closer to Father, I saw him casually greeting my fellow mourners. He would shake hands and exchange a few words that amounted to no more then cliche conversation, all the while retaining his trademark smile. I expected the same for myself, but when he saw me he shouted my name to my surprise and threw his arms around me. The exchange was authentic and heart felt. Words do not express what that moment meant to me. I felt like a prodigal son in my own right. I felt I had come back to where I belonged. I felt I had come back to myself.
After that reunion I made my way along on the line past the casket of Fr. Francis. God had worked something through him in a way no human mind could have orchestrated and in a way Fr. Francis himself did not even have a direct part in. I never knew Fr. Francis that well, but I do take solace in the fact that on more then one occasion I got to share in his secret handshake and exchange a few words with him in the sacristy. Most of all I am grateful for what was worked through him by God and how Fr. Francis brought me back home.